Confessions of a Blogaholic

I'm still here, but I'm having a difficult time posting. I'm tired of thinking/obsessing about baby stuff, but I find that I am completely incapable of discussing anything else in my blogs anymore. If you followed my Myspace blog, you know that I used to be able to write about a myriad of topics from politics to stories from my past, but I can't do it anymore. I feel like my quest to babydom (OBH) has taken over my life. The only other thing I can find to talk about is my job, but there are only so many things to be said about teaching while on summer vacation.

Last night was my first inject. After a brief training "class" done by the hilarious and super-friendly nurses at my RE's office, I wasn't sure if I was going to screw it up or not! I got the pen ready (cartridge goes inside the pen), dialed my dose (dial is like the "clicky" on a clicky pen), put the capped needle on, and settled myself into the recliner. I should mention here that I had my hubs on the phone and he was rambling on and on about something--I was glad to have him as a distraction. I took the outer cap and then the inner cap off the needle and instantly a drop of the med came out of the needle. I FREAKED (this stuff is too damn expensive to waste like that!) and quickly shoved it into myself--no time to think about it!

Unfortunately, I didn't have my hand positioned right to press in the dialed dose (like SLOWLY clicking in the end of that clicky pen), so the needle was wiggling around in my stomach while I tried to get my hand on correctly. I pushed in the dial, and viola! I was finished. No harm done.

Tonight's dose was a little more difficult because there was no drip, so I had time to think about it--never a good idea! It's best to just do the thing and be done with it.

I have 4 more nights of this. Then, I go in Monday morning to find out what (if anything) is going on. I'm desperately hoping for at least 3-4 good-sized follicles out of all this. No, I don't necessarily want 3-4 babies (shew!), but with hub's sperm count issues I want to have as many "targets" as possible for the little bit of sperm we have. I hope the B2B IUIs will help too, since last time we couldn't bd because of the soreness. I had to sign a waiver, though, that I understood I have a 30% chance of twins and a 10% chance of triplets with inject/IUI treatment at my facility. I honestly don't care about having multiples anymore--just let me know that I CAN get pg.