Confessions of a Blogaholic

I didn't realize it had been almost two weeks since I last posted. Wow!

Not much to report, really. Each day is pretty much the same thing over and over again for now. I wake up whenever I can't get Rylee to go back to sleep (although I've learned a few little tricks for getting her to sleep longer, which tends to allow me on and off sleep until 11 or noon). I spend all day and night bouncing between breastfeeding, changing diapers, and trying to find time to pee and eat. Ry eats about every 2 hours during the day and varies between every 2-4 hours at night, and she eats anywhere from 40-60 minutes at a time. So, for example, if she eats at 2pm and eats until 3pm and is on one of her two-hour feeding days, she will eat again at 4pm giving me exactly one hour to either play with her (if she is awake), hold a binky in her mouth (if she's grumpy), take a nap (if she's sleepy), or eat/clean/pee. I can't complain about this "new life," though, because I really enjoy having her here. I love looking at her, watching her weird facial expressions while she sleeps, having her look at me so intently when I am holding her and talking to her. She's amazing--even if she does eat like a fat kid eats cake :)

I won't lie and say there aren't frustrating moments, though. I do get frustrated when she cluster feeds for 3 HOURS (yes, she eats and eats and eats for 3 HOURS) in the evenings. I get frustrated when I've just gotten her to sleep and I set her in the bassinet and she wakes up screaming again. I get annoyed when I only get 20 minutes of sleep before she wakes up again to feed. I get really frustrated when I've done everything I can think of (diaper, feed, binky, swaddle, walk around, play, check warm/cold, massage with lotion, etc.) and she is still crying. I sometimes even get annoyed because I feel like I'm a slave to my boobs...

...but all of this is only temporary. So after my fleeting moment of frustration, I remember this will be over soon and I'll miss it. Some day, she will be able to tell me what she wants, and I won't be shooting in the dark. Some day, she'll be eating solid foods, and she won't want/need my boobs anymore. Some day, I'll be back to sleeping through most of the night, and I'll be sad that she doesn't need me as much as she does right now.

I absolutely love this baby. She is the coolest thing that has ever happened to me.

I'll write again soon, I promise, and hopefully, I'll have something more interesting to talk about :)

I just love this picture of her. Would you believe she has EVEN MORE hair now and this picture was just taken a week ago??


The boppy pillow is the best invention ever.